Gratitude

Happy Labor Day yall! 

Hope everyone is enjoying the long weekend. Funny how we all celebrate by doing the least amount of labor for a couple of days. I know it's like a reward for all of the hard work we all do throughout the year, but I always kind of laugh when people say "what are you doing for Labor Day?" And my reply is "nothing" 😜

But I digress.... 

Before I get into my music manifesto of course let's get into the HEAL update. Things are kind of more of the same I've been stuck I guess what you would call now the "20 pound plateau". Once I broke the first one I've been stalled at the "240's" the past few weeks. Still counting calories and trying to get my yoga in 3x week but haven't really been as militant as much as I would like to be either.  Coming out of vacation, week alone and getting the girls ready for back to school has been challenging my will power.  Even as much as I went on about not drinking a week or so ago there I was "partaking" a bit last weekend but I tried not to beat myself up about it. I just tell myself "you're trying your best you're human" and "tomorrow the calorie click starts fresh at 1,530 pal keep going" I have been getting into a good habit lately of before I eat something I enter it In my app first and think "hmm is it worth it?" rather than "eat first ask questions later"  which helps.

Back to school...back to schooool...to prove to daddy that I'm no fool  

Back to school...back to schooool...to prove to daddy that I'm no fool  

But now it's September so to me it's the third part of the trilogy and as you Star Wars geeks know depending on which ones you follow you can either have a cheesy celebration with furry Ewoks burning your dad or fall in lava and have your dad yelling a cheesy "nooooooooo" at the end so as much as I despise Ewoks I'm gonna dance with them in the woods. 

Why Lucas why? You almost had me misty eyed until you added this. Don't let us down JJ

Why Lucas why? You almost had me misty eyed until you added this. Don't let us down JJ

My goal is under 200lbs by January 1st 2016 and with 40lbs to go in 4 months I know I can do it! I tried DDP for 5 days this week but by Thursday I could feel my body falling apart from lack of sleep and aches so I'm back on the harder sessions 3x this week and the "diet" is gonna be back on hardcore right after Labor Day. No more "eh...you can have chips or a serving of ice cream it's in your calories" it defeats the purpose of what I am doing. No sugar, carbs, juicing (and no more Naked drinks even though I'm getting veggies that's a ton of sugar!) and hardcore yoga can do it. I'm even going to try e-smokes this week to stop smoking. I'm like a chimney lately and I figure if I try this and only take a hit from the "electronic dick" as I call it when I'm really joensin it might help me just give it up by 2016. 

My new parlor trick when I see family/friends and they say "how is yoga you look good!" Is ill do moves like the bent good ornament or how I balance on one leg, grab my big toe and hold my leg out "kinda straight" to show off. I do it sometimes just to remind myself that a year ago at this time I could barely walk.  

So now I digress even more.......

I'm sure that you know if you read this and if you follow me on Social media that at long last my album HEAL is finally released digitally! 

Not to discount anything I've ever done in the past because I am extremely proud and love a lot of the projects I've done with my musical brothers (damn as you will read most are still present in this album!) but this album is one of the best, personal and most rewarding thing I've ever released. If I had to make a "Mount Rushmore" of anything I've ever put out I'd have to say (in no order): 

HEAL  

Brady Bastards - "The Deep End"  

Product of Society "Schizaphrenagenic" 

The Daliance "Birth, Love, Death"  

Just like Use Your Illusion if we mixed the best from these two that would of been a killer album 😉 

Just like Use Your Illusion if we mixed the best from these two that would of been a killer album 😉 

It was a longer than I thought process, but to take these songs that I had laying around for years slowly come together little by little and to hear the end result was so cool for me to experience. From recordings on my iPad, then traveling to Cleveland to see Darrell and recording with him again, to record remaining vocals with Dave at Starr Ridge in Brewster (who we recorded POS with decades ago) then getting new mixes, pre-masters then finally The final masters from "My Jarvis" Darrell at the end....just like the new lifestyle it was a slow burn that became so worth it at the end.

I  will admit when the final masters came in I sat in my bed late at night, put the earbuds in and listened to each song and by track two I could feel happy tears run down my face and thought holy fuck I actually did it

Date for when it's released on iTunes, Spotify, etc...even though I miss the days of physical copies there's something that's so cool when you see your music mixed in with other major artists online  

Date for when it's released on iTunes, Spotify, etc...even though I miss the days of physical copies there's something that's so cool when you see your music mixed in with other major artists online  

As much as this album is me playing guitar, bass, singing and even piano/keys (which is something I always wanted to do I'm still learning to this day..especially live) and is officially my first ever "solo album" there's no way I could of done this by myself. There are so many people I need to thank, which when reading this all back, I will do a seperate entry in order to not drown you all with blabbing in one post this blog is supposed to be about the health journey you know 😉

So look for a seperate entry for that this weekend  with more details on the music and what my plans are but I just wanted to say To everyone who's following, sharing snd downloading THANK YOU! 

I started this blog and website not only to promote my music but it was more about documenting this year trying to get better, to keep myself accountable for my behavior and to show everyone that if I can do it, you can do it too! If you are stuck, feeling horrible, you really want to change and are ready...it's never too late. You're gonna fall a lot (see above with my yoga balancing) and its ok but take it from me if you get back up and keep going slow and steady the right way without shakes and bars and pills you will see results. 

It's been extremely helpful for me to do this so try it too! Start a blog, an Instagram page (I've friended and followed a lot of people on there that liked my pics from my hashtags that are doing the same they really do work people!) log down everything and don't be afraid to share it with the world warts and all good as much as bad.

I've been criticized by some close people to me who say "you share too much on there" but you know what? If I didn't and make myself accountable for everyone to see..just like in the past what's to stop me from just going back to my old ways? If I do all this blabbing, then walked around and just did what I used to do anyway I would feel like a fraud and would of felt like I let you all down. I am in no ways skinny and I probably never will be, but as of today I feel 1000% better. 

I'd be lying if I  said I don't care if this album doesn't do anything of course I want it to get as much exposure, sell a ton of copies and be a success. But I can honestly say the people who emailed me saying they either started DDP, or changed their eating habits, shared their similar stories with me and said "I'm gonna try it too" because of these posts means just as much...maybe even more than a download or a like if a song.

For that I'm completely grateful.  

 

Hulking it out...dammit I forgot my Fitbit!  

Hulking it out...dammit I forgot my Fitbit!