Greetings true believers!
I know I know it's been a few weeks. Sorry for not updating as much as I used to. Sometimes the duties of life, love and the day job can get in the way with the personal passions and the things you want to get done but you know what? All good things so I cannot complain one bit.
First I do want to personally thank everyone for the kind words that you left regarding my last entry. It was one of those things where you sit in front of your screen with a topic thinking "hmm how am I gonna write this?" But a few hours later and a lot of honesty and out it comes. It was very therapeutic and the feedback was great so THANK YOU!
So what has your "Healer" been doing the past few weeks? Honestly just living life and doing it the right way. Spent a lovely time in the best city in the world NYC with my girls catching "Matilda" (which I highly recommend!), a night in a fancy hotel, Museum Of Natural History the next day, then my birthday celebration on the weekend!
I have to say I think the reason I haven't been updating as much is because on the health tip, there isn't really much to tell. I'm at the point now where I'm making healthier choices without thinking, not craving the horrible things I used to ingest and I'm really digging the yoga. Still on 3 days a week in the mornings before everyone wakes up and it feels amazing.
I also have to admit that I have reached what I like to call "The 40 pound Plateau" There's been so many times when I've attempted to diet where I do some quick ass gimmick, I lose about 40 pounds, feel great, then hit a wall where I don't lose anymore and I just say "eh fuck it" and go back to my crummy ways which means it comes right back.
Difference this time is I'm not doing 40lbs in a month. The way I have done it this time is slow...doing it the right way naturally with no fast gimmicks and although I've been losing like 10lbs a month it's still rewarding. Like I keep saying you don't have to sit there, eat a stalk of celery and cry. You can eat what you want but be active, count what you are eating and things will work out.
But like I said I'm at the 40 pound plateau now where I'm doing the work, counting the calories and avoiding the crap but yet the past few weeks I haven't seen that number go down and it can be discouraging. I was getting scared that I was going to fall back on my evil ways cause that's what I always did before.
But a few things made me realize that it's not gonna happen...
1) the fact that recently I tried on the next size down jeans and not only did they fit again, I have to wear a belt with them!
2) given the choice between either bad food and the healthy alternative now I always choose healthy and I honestly don't even think twice. I couldn't believe during room service while the girls were eating pancakes, French toast, bacon I ordered fresh fruit, yogurt and natural granola and was psyched for it (ok I did snag the bacon later shhhhh)
3) Having the first band rehearsal last week where not only did I feel great while getting in a room rocking again I finally felt comfortable in my own skin which I haven't felt in a few years (check out the music news page above for the latest!)
Sure, I'm at my "oh crap I better do something" weight from the past right now but you know what? It's much better than 300lbs from only a few months ago and with my new Fitbit on my wrist and my new found mindset...that 40 pound wall is coming down.